There is a heavey hatred
In my heart
That stains my soul
Like wine on winter white
This seeping creeping darkness
Deep within
Is slowly surely twisting
Twining tight
I feel the crawling tendrils
Taking root
Inside
My core
More and more
This venom vine
This tainted tree
It rots it feeds
On the pieces left of me
Save me please
From the monster that I see
In the coldness of the looking glass
In the remnants of a broken past
Break the bonds
Sever ties
Peel away
This disguise
Help me find some harmony
Find the girl I used to be
Unless
Who
Tears streaming down my face
Was it worth it?
Pressure pounding in your head
Was it worth it?
...
You whisper sweet nothings in my ear
But I can't hear beyong the lies
And my screams are silent
And all I can see
Are the shadows on the wall
I'm shackled and the fire's cold
Free me from this hold
Please let me find the light
Outside your eyes, your voice, your touch
Darkness is not enough
And all I can hear
Are the secrets hanging in the air
I'm shackled and the fire's cold
Let go
of me
I need
to breathe
I want some semblance of my sanity
I've been
decieved
And I loved it
But I can't seem to rise above i
Eyes as black as midnight skies
Lips like rubies
Inky hair, more fluid than the ocean tides
And alabaster skin
She stalks the seedy streets
Hides behind the shadows
Slinks along the edge of dark and light
Waiting
Waiting
With the purpose of a mother
With the patience of a saint
And all the dark intent
Of a cold and lonely heart
That has long since stopped its beating
There
A man
Not old
But not quite young
Carrying a boy
In weary arms
The elder stops
Beneath the dying glow
Of ancient lamps
And listens for a while
The younger wakes
And looks around
And cries:
Something isn't right
She lets them pass
Untouched
Unsc
The Note You'll Never Read by ChaosReborn, literature
Literature
The Note You'll Never Read
This is the note you'll never read
A song that's made with all of me
The silent, haunting melody…
A bleeding heart you'll never see
Invisible
Yes, that's what I am to you
And all I'll ever be, it's true
And yet, my heart
My foolish, foolish heart
Will not let you go
It's wrong, I know
But oh, alas, it must be so
Like glass… the tears, they fall
And shatter like
They aren't mine at all
…That's right… they're not
As am I, each one is yours
But you forgot
And they stumble all the more
Through the ocean of despair
That coats my face
And soaks my hair
This torrent
In which I drown
Sinking down
Where sanity won't touch me
I, The Wretched Creature by ChaosReborn, literature
Literature
I, The Wretched Creature
I'd like to start this tale
With flighty words that never fail
An innocent and upbeat rhyme
Such as "Once upon a time"
Or something of the like
But Destiny is not so kind
She laughs as me with midnight eyes
And Pain and Passion take their aim
And lure me into thrice-cursed games
And make me play in thrice-cursed flames
No... No! Set me free!
Stop this dance of misery!
Heaven help me! Let me go!
These dreams are only mine to know!
...I though I killed them long ago...
The castle... in my head
Is lined with blooms of bloody red
Inspires only thoughts of dread
Because I know he's everywhere
The heaviest cross I've had to bear
I'm so confused
I don't know what to think
What to say
What to feel
Can this be real?
If it is, I'm dying
Gods! I don't know if I'm lying
to myself, or if, perhaps
I'm just too blind to see
Exactly what you want from me
My eyes
These traitorous eyes
Seem so intent
To read between the lines
That you might have never written
My soul
This wine-soaked soul
Decays from within
It's smitten
With your shadowed call
So dark
That I can't sense it when I fall
I'd rather not return at all
So small
I realize too soon
That I'm no more than a fool
Because...
I do not have a choice
Your voice
Like a sundry summer bree
Mirror, mirror, on the wall
And through the looking-glass I fall
With silence screaming in my wake
Lament the path I didn't take
O, morbid floods of crimson rain
Take my joy and give me pain
Let death-knells ring from shore to shore
And feed upon my soul once more
Eternal darkness as my cue
My love shall be the death of you
Yield to its unholy calls
The blackened mirror on the wall
There is a heavey hatred
In my heart
That stains my soul
Like wine on winter white
This seeping creeping darkness
Deep within
Is slowly surely twisting
Twining tight
I feel the crawling tendrils
Taking root
Inside
My core
More and more
This venom vine
This tainted tree
It rots it feeds
On the pieces left of me
Save me please
From the monster that I see
In the coldness of the looking glass
In the remnants of a broken past
Break the bonds
Sever ties
Peel away
This disguise
Help me find some harmony
Find the girl I used to be
Unless
Who
Tears streaming down my face
Was it worth it?
Pressure pounding in your head
Was it worth it?
...
You whisper sweet nothings in my ear
But I can't hear beyong the lies
And my screams are silent
And all I can see
Are the shadows on the wall
I'm shackled and the fire's cold
Free me from this hold
Please let me find the light
Outside your eyes, your voice, your touch
Darkness is not enough
And all I can hear
Are the secrets hanging in the air
I'm shackled and the fire's cold
Let go
of me
I need
to breathe
I want some semblance of my sanity
I've been
decieved
And I loved it
But I can't seem to rise above i
Eyes as black as midnight skies
Lips like rubies
Inky hair, more fluid than the ocean tides
And alabaster skin
She stalks the seedy streets
Hides behind the shadows
Slinks along the edge of dark and light
Waiting
Waiting
With the purpose of a mother
With the patience of a saint
And all the dark intent
Of a cold and lonely heart
That has long since stopped its beating
There
A man
Not old
But not quite young
Carrying a boy
In weary arms
The elder stops
Beneath the dying glow
Of ancient lamps
And listens for a while
The younger wakes
And looks around
And cries:
Something isn't right
She lets them pass
Untouched
Unsc
The Note You'll Never Read by ChaosReborn, literature
Literature
The Note You'll Never Read
This is the note you'll never read
A song that's made with all of me
The silent, haunting melody…
A bleeding heart you'll never see
Invisible
Yes, that's what I am to you
And all I'll ever be, it's true
And yet, my heart
My foolish, foolish heart
Will not let you go
It's wrong, I know
But oh, alas, it must be so
Like glass… the tears, they fall
And shatter like
They aren't mine at all
…That's right… they're not
As am I, each one is yours
But you forgot
And they stumble all the more
Through the ocean of despair
That coats my face
And soaks my hair
This torrent
In which I drown
Sinking down
Where sanity won't touch me
I, The Wretched Creature by ChaosReborn, literature
Literature
I, The Wretched Creature
I'd like to start this tale
With flighty words that never fail
An innocent and upbeat rhyme
Such as "Once upon a time"
Or something of the like
But Destiny is not so kind
She laughs as me with midnight eyes
And Pain and Passion take their aim
And lure me into thrice-cursed games
And make me play in thrice-cursed flames
No... No! Set me free!
Stop this dance of misery!
Heaven help me! Let me go!
These dreams are only mine to know!
...I though I killed them long ago...
The castle... in my head
Is lined with blooms of bloody red
Inspires only thoughts of dread
Because I know he's everywhere
The heaviest cross I've had to bear
I'm so confused
I don't know what to think
What to say
What to feel
Can this be real?
If it is, I'm dying
Gods! I don't know if I'm lying
to myself, or if, perhaps
I'm just too blind to see
Exactly what you want from me
My eyes
These traitorous eyes
Seem so intent
To read between the lines
That you might have never written
My soul
This wine-soaked soul
Decays from within
It's smitten
With your shadowed call
So dark
That I can't sense it when I fall
I'd rather not return at all
So small
I realize too soon
That I'm no more than a fool
Because...
I do not have a choice
Your voice
Like a sundry summer bree
Mirror, mirror, on the wall
And through the looking-glass I fall
With silence screaming in my wake
Lament the path I didn't take
O, morbid floods of crimson rain
Take my joy and give me pain
Let death-knells ring from shore to shore
And feed upon my soul once more
Eternal darkness as my cue
My love shall be the death of you
Yield to its unholy calls
The blackened mirror on the wall
Current Residence: Out of mind Favourite genre of music: LOUD Favourite photographer: Anyone but me MP3 player of choice: Niobe Shell of choice: Turtles or conch Skin of choice: Mine Personal Quote: If you love me, you're a fool
Favourite Gaming Platform
A table...?
Tools of the Trade
My mind (when it works)
Other Interests
Eating, sleeping, friends, and all that good stuff
In hindsight
I can see
That my teen years were
A scary, scary place
Full of drama and angst
And sad sad unrequited crushes
I am SOOOO glad that's over
Daphne
Daphne knows with equal ease
How to vex and how to please
Snow
Out of the bosom of the air
Out of the cloud-folds of her garments shaken
Over the woodlands brown and bare
Over the harvest fields forsaken
Silent, and soft, and slow
Descends the snow
Even as our cloudy fancies take
Suddenly shape in some divine expression
Even as the troubled heart doth make
In the white countenance confession
The troubled sky reveals
The grief it feels
This is the poem of the air
Slowly in silent syllables recorded
This is the secret of despair
Long in its cloudy bosom hoarded
Now whispered and revealed
To wood and field
Ah!
Silen
Sorry for the massive updates... I'm figuring out how to fix the crappy postings I did LAST night... er... yesterday morning... bah.
FINALLY got the version on Sleepless Nights up... woot! Happy feelings for blueness!!! Posted Sleepless Nights II, which people seem to like... and I've got Sleepless Nights III on the way. I have three "canidates" for the spot, so I put them on myspace and had the people there vote for whatever they like most... I'll take the most popular one and post it on... sunday, prolly. After church.
It's all good.
It's the start of..... Snow Ball Fight 2005-2006 !!!!
One rule to this game....
You can't hit someone who has already hit you!
Now... go out there and get as many people as you can, before they get you!